Sestina revision

My first attempt was garbage so I'm having another go 

At writing a sestina with meaning 

That hopefully has evidence if talent 

Which is hard to do

When all I can think 

Of is my future that is coming 

Yes, winter is going and spring is coming 

And I know where I want to go 

My future is all I can think 

About, meaning 

I'm royally screwed if we must do

stuff requiring thought or talent 

Because talent 

Comes hard if something is coming 

That's why I can't do 

So well and allow myself to go

Digging for deeper meanings

I guess I didn't think 

About my future until now but I think

It will require some talent 

So I guess I'll be fine then, meaning

Nothing better is coming 

I'll have no where to go 

That will distract me from what I must do

Right now I can't do 

Anything except think

Of where I will go 

But after spring break! And college! Where shall I use my talent

Some job where nothing better is coming 

"NO" I keep saying, meaning 

I must keep yearning for a future with meaning 

And more fun things to do 

Maybe I'll have a family coming 

And friends that think

Like me. And still the future will destroy my talent

Because I will still have places to go 

And friends and family to go 

See! That won't care about my talent 

And the things I'll look forward too will be much sweeter than spring break or college .... I think 

I know this was supposed to be a revision but we all know there was no salvaging my first attempt so this one was attempt number two. At first I seemed to be going to a depressing place so I tried to turn it around by the end. I think the format is right and I know it has much more meaning than the first try.